// NEW MONEY \\ 1.27.22 // Kill Rock Stars \\

  

New interview out today in Mundane Magazine.

READ THE ONLINE VERSION HERE

I’m on the Mentally Together Podcast this week! Listen here.

I was the guest on this week’s episode of the Mentally Together Podcast with Cassidy Quinn, chatting about recovery and wellness and music and things.

Listen here if ya wanna. 💙

Behind The Record – Standing in the Way of Control

Join me and the Recording Academy in recognizing all of the music creators who work #BehindTheRecord — an initiative to give credit where credit is due.

It’s time to bring music credits back and celebrate writers and other creators who work behind the scenes.

Here’s a peek at everybody who made our Gossip cover happen for Kill Rock Stars’ 30th Anniversary record this year!

Every time I have tried to write a memoir I always get to a point where I scream “eww!” and quit. People are weirdos and I’m one of them. There’s your book. 🖤

As Mental Health Awareness Month draws to a close and Pride Month begins, I sat down with Sheila Hamilton for a 2 part episode of the Beyond Well Podcast to chat about gay stuff, recovery, music, advocacy work, and Gucci.

📸 Polaroid i-Type Film, 2021 // #GucciEpilogue

I did a thing with MTV, TikTok and Sheila Hamilton for Mental Health Action Day. 💋

Watch on IGTV HERE:

Watch on YouTube HERE:

I hear a lot about downtown Portland being gone forever and have seen tons of stories about how the soul of the city is lost on the news — but I spent yesterday downtown and had the best time. It didn’t feel like PDX is gone at all. If anything, it felt like Old Portland is starting to make its return, but has a Gucci store now. It’s great.

In other news, I was gonna start juicing on illegal steroids but read that you still have to exercise for them to be effective, so what’s the point?

#GucciEpilogue // 📸 Polaroid i-Type Film, 2020

Side effects are fading and I am really fucking excited to be fully vaccinated. Get your shot so we can dance and make out!

#TiffanyHardwear // 📸 Polaroid i-Type Film, 2021

13 years.

20 years ago this month I was homeless in San Francisco, living in a pay-by-the-hour “hotel” in the Tenderloin, trying desperately to convince people I was a normal person instead of a junkie who was starving and scared and just barely hanging on.

Money was expensive back then, but I got myself 3 shirts, a pair of jeans, some sneakers and a Gucci hat, and did my best impression of a human person as I handed out the resumes I had printed at a friend’s house before leaving Portland with a one-way train ticket to the city.

Every move I made back then was an act of desperation, and that desperately fancy hat got me in the door for a job interview at a store that I truly had no business shopping in at the time, much less managing. I got the job and, just like that, I was somebody new.

To this day I am entirely convinced that Gucci cap is what dazzled them into hiring me…or, at least, distracted them into giving me the chance, glassy eyed red flags and all. They would, of course, regret giving me that chance.

I worked hard to turn these fake projections into an actual life for myself while I was still very sick, with some success — but it’s hard to hold onto anything when you have to smoke crack and drink vodka all day just to function.

I built and lost everything many, many times over the course of my 16 year addiction. I was completely disconnected from reality and truth, and I hurt a ton of people as I spun out.

This month marks 13 years since the last time I drank alcohol, used cocaine, crack or heroin, or tried to destroy myself in some other creative way. I am about as far from homeless as a person can get, am surrounded by people and projects I love, and clearly all of my wildest Gucci dreams from way back when have manifested in the years since getting well and becoming myself again.

Honestly, I could never have pictured this life. I seem to have landed that elusive peace I was chasing for so long, and it’s just as I had hoped it would be.

So if you are in the middle of the struggle, giving up on yourself and the idea of a future for your life: DON’T.

Stick around so some strange joy and glamour can find you, too.

#GucciEquilibrium

Let’s Give These Losers The Closing Ceremony They Deserve.

I do not know what’s about to happen this week — in Portland, my home, and around the country — but I do know that I love you, and I have enough gay hope to go around.

So stand up, get mad, stay fancy, and let’s give these losers the closing ceremony they deserve.

🏳️‍🌈✊💋

New Story + Video Interview with Logan Lynn in Willamette Week

I spoke with Willamette Week about everything we’re up to with the DotGay launch this week. 🏳️‍🌈

Story and video interview out today HERE.

#YesHomo





 

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