// NEW MONEY \\ 1.27.22 // Kill Rock Stars \\

  

About this Christmas song…

This Christmas song of mine that Kill Rock Stars just put out was written about how our government and lots of our friends and neighbors failed us all over the last couple of years. We recorded it in the midst of the first wave of the pandemic where it really seemed like absolutely everyone I know and love was going to die.

Many did.

I think the holidays are traumatizing for a lot of people, especially now, given the scale of the loss and grief of this time we are living through. There are a bunch of queer and trans people who have already lived through a pandemic that brought suffering into our lives and wiped out entire generations of our LGBTQ+ elders — so I figured there should be a Christmas anthem for us, too. Fuck Christmas, ya know? Especially now.

I channeled all of my exhausted, queer rage into this beast in the studio and I know it was really cathartic for my whole team as we were in there making it. There has been so much to scream about, and not enough people screaming. It felt good to let some out, and to have a place to put it all.

For the video we brought together imagery that evokes these feelings I’ve been having around all of the loss, violence, misinformation and trolling so many of us have been experiencing, then we juxtaposed that with imagery of gay joy and sex and wildness from the before times.

Remember making out with random dudes?

I do.

WATCH THE VIDEO HERE

STREAM THE SINGLE HERE

I’m on the Mentally Together Podcast this week! Listen here.

I was the guest on this week’s episode of the Mentally Together Podcast with Cassidy Quinn, chatting about recovery and wellness and music and things.

Listen here if ya wanna. 💙

Recovery is possible.

As Recovery Month comes to a close, I just wanted to give a quick shout-out to everyone who believed that my life had worth back when I did not.

It’s been nearly 14 years since the last time I smoked crack, had a needle in my arm, took a drink, was homeless, or tried to hurt myself in some other creative way — and life is good now.

You were right. Thank you. 🖤

Hello I have become one of these very happy people I used to read about in books. I know the timing is weird.

Anyway, I probably love you and will say yes if the ring is right.

#GucciEpilogue

When I was a baby gay growing up in the middle of the country I found a copy of the original Kill Rock Stars comp in the Alternative section of Camelot Music on a trip to the big city and it changed my ears forever.

I was 12 years old and hearing Bikini Kill, Kurt Cobain, Bratmobile, Courtney Love, Mecca Normal, (the) Melvins, Unwound, Heavens to Betsy, and all these other bands really opened my eyes to a bigger, louder, more accepting world than the one I had been born into. It saved me at the time.

Fast forward exactly 30 years and now I’m signed to Kill Rock Stars and have a song on the KRS comp alongside Deerhoof, Mary Lou Lord, Califone, Xiu Xiu, Against Me!, The Builders and the Butchers, Bitch, and so many other rad folks. Wild, dreamy stuff.

Get some for your ear holes in the store section of this site — and stay tuned for new tunes and videos coming your way here very soon.🖤

Annual reminder that actually nothing matters! Find people to love and maybe they’ll love you back.

Literally no one knows why we are here and it’s fine! 💙

📸 Polaroid 600 Film, 2020 // #Portland

Every time I have tried to write a memoir I always get to a point where I scream “eww!” and quit. People are weirdos and I’m one of them. There’s your book. 🖤

As Mental Health Awareness Month draws to a close and Pride Month begins, I sat down with Sheila Hamilton for a 2 part episode of the Beyond Well Podcast to chat about gay stuff, recovery, music, advocacy work, and Gucci.

📸 Polaroid i-Type Film, 2021 // #GucciEpilogue

I moved to Portland 25 years ago this month when I was 16 and it’s the longest relationship I’ve ever had.

Must be love.

#HollywoodForever, Gucci // 📸 Polaroid i-Type Film, 2021

I did a thing with MTV, TikTok and Sheila Hamilton for Mental Health Action Day. 💋

Watch on IGTV HERE:

Watch on YouTube HERE:

I hear a lot about downtown Portland being gone forever and have seen tons of stories about how the soul of the city is lost on the news — but I spent yesterday downtown and had the best time. It didn’t feel like PDX is gone at all. If anything, it felt like Old Portland is starting to make its return, but has a Gucci store now. It’s great.

In other news, I was gonna start juicing on illegal steroids but read that you still have to exercise for them to be effective, so what’s the point?

#GucciEpilogue // 📸 Polaroid i-Type Film, 2020





 

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